Hiking Ramblings

Everything, everywhere, all at once.

Marveling at the ability to hold space for so many emotions when the ego Mind is turned off. Why is it so hard to ignore the chatter and listen to what our ancestors knew so well and spoke to as a friend? I want to know you intimately because I know you have my best interests and what I need. And in this particular time of transition, you’re requiring a level of this that increases your capacity and awareness to see beauty and be fully present to opportunities of love and connection. And at the same time, holding space for emotions that would be so easy to compartmentalize, so easy to chain up because it would be easier.

So in this way of being, I fall in love constantly. I’m routinely surprised with tears; tears that used to get stuck in my throat, or where my mind would intervene and say, “Now is not the right time.” However, now my body, because it’s calibrated more for trust in this moment, allows for immediate resolution. And in that resolution, it might not be that all the emotions have been sorted, because that would involve time, it at least acknowledges them and doesn’t bury them to a place of abandonment or leave them to be forgotten. When they’re buried so deep, they’re solidified. Solidification creates discomfort and disease. Which is why, to this day, it is easy for the body to remind us of so much mental anguish masking as physical ailments.

The nun told me, that no matter what wrong turn I take, that God still wants to walk with me and wants the best for me. That not even the wrong turns present a lesson. That not even in suffering am I alone ever and I am loved for exactly who I am. So I commit to this God, the God the universe, as another teacher called it “that which is not affected by time or space.” That this undercurrent does provide what my soul in this iteration needs, And is because of that that I can surrender because I don’t need to have anxiety for what’s next.

It’s much more about listening, because I won’t be able to act if I don’t hear the message before I would just act. So or in fact, create friction and action for the sake of production. But creativity cannot be measured by production alone. I on heart is not rushed. So in preparation for listening, all I can do is not hide and not run from what’s presented, that there are that we cannot be warriors all of the time, adequate time of reflection and gratitude and are needed so that the same lessons And the same patterns aren’t represented. May I always recognize the repeat lessons, because the more I ignore them, I. The less growth happens until I learn the lesson. So no running, no hiding, listening surrendering, Only then, can Action follow? Can I how do we do the first part, the no running, the no hiding, in order to in order to not run, to not hide, you must sit. And I know, for someone like me, who has a lot of energy and longs to show my self worth from what I’m able to produce, this opposite requirement does not come naturally. It’s so much easier for me. Certainly I thank to fill up my day and my mind with thoughts and actions outside of what’s readily present in front of me, to do lists, shoulds And so that I’m accounted for. What if no one is holding you accountable, but your soul, a soul that lived long before The current date and time you were born into that was programmed with maps and energies that are not easily deciphered in the modern world.

So then, how do you listen? It requires dedicated time, but can be done anywhere. Initially, it might be that you have to set a timer or to use a guide to turn off the ego mind. You might be needing to set the stage, a corner, an area like the bell for a dog to eat. You might need to trick yourself, but the trick is just a joke, because your soul knows what’s best for you, and at first the chatter, the doubt, the streams of consciousness are So loud and they create discomfort in your body and they latch on to sounds so eager for you to live outside of your soul’s desire. The thoughts would like to be the master. Your thoughts are mortal because they are of this exact time period and this exact experience. In order to transcend that, you must quiet the mind and distinguish and listen to your gut, your energy centers. They’re so much more powerful, so subtle, the perfect blend of masculine and feminine, of exacting flow of determined and flexible that is the work you when you’ve limited and starved and restricted the mind, you can Explore the infinite wisdom of your unique soul and align it with the immortal riches of wisdom and love And when you don’t hide a false prison for you to live in. You’re free to see and experience this iteration in a more freeing and full way. You, I. The cases from beyond, readily available. You don’t need to search anywhere but from within, listening is the first nudge.